Unemployed or self-employed?

Because, unemployed doesn’t mean I have anything else to do, literally I have so many works running the same time. They can be assumed as works or not real work.

Reading is my routine work to do day by day.

It includes reading english texts such as news, and medical articles especially the disease and treatment popped up in my head. Not only reading , listening Ted talks, english podcast and conversations took too much time and eating,driving and even sleeping are all counted on those listening time. I do this because I want to be fluent in english .

Practicing old questions , figuring out the questions and strategy to get high marks in test are not an easy one.

Besides all those things, I have  to read and study current treatment to be able to give proper management to patients. I don’t have my own clinic .But there is a charity clinic I used to sit on some days. i have been lacked of practice for long term.

Beside those tasks, I am working on IT projects .

Rally headaching and totally not my professional field. So, i have to put so much effort to understand .

Everything was started from scratch.

After doing all those works, what i realized is I don’t get paid for what i did.

May be a little.

Financial task come after those tasks. I try not to forget What I have to obtain .

That ‘s also a concentrating work. I have apps running on their own and small amount of money comes from that apps everyday. I have 5 apps in total , 3 apps can make money everyday.Although they are all self-running apps, little time for maintenance is necessary to make sure whether they are running or not. Because of the sanction, money from oversea can not directly come into my bank acc.

That’s why in indirect way, my friend in oversea received what I have to get and transfer back to me.

A little complicated and there are unsolved issues still existing and some of my money are under their restriction.

So, if i wrap up all the tasks I am handling , I am unemployed, but not really a stress free man.

My family and my environment want me to see a working man in somewhere they can see visually.

But the kind of work they mention is not actually a work for me. It’s kind of boring even though I was paying every month. Not productive ,not exciting..

My current situation is no leisure time but I have to work every minutes,seconds and hours of my day.

Stressful, no off day, no night out , no girl friend, no encouragement , no respect, no fun…

I am sick of this life and really wanna quit.

Want to be active and work independently .

Wanna work with people.

I am thinking to work in NGO (MSF doctors without border). I think it will be kind of exciting and will have fun caring people and helping out.

But on the other side, a scholarship i am waiting is not responded yet. I didn’t hope too much in the first place. It was my first time applying for scholarship and I didn’t know strategy and neither to show off my IELTS certificate.

But if i can hear a good news from them, it will be very great for me.

A bless I dare not hope.

Although I thought to apply another scholarship to catch july deadline , not having IELTS score is a burden for me .

I collapsed to make it .

But , I am sure I will the IELTS test in September .

Will make sure to get satisfied score I hoped for.

The end .

1st July 2016

Nyein Chan Ko Ko